Monday, December 29, 2025

discontent.

"What neither that doctor nor the therapist understood was that the stress was caused not by what I did at my job but, as I'd tried to explain to him, by having to go to work. Spending eight hours form Monday to Friday on alienating and unsatisfying tasks, surrounded by people with whom I was forced to have futile and boring conversations full of absurd platitudes about mortgages or parking spaces or the words their children said wrong or the last series they'd watched on Netflix. All that time I was giving to others instead of staying at home reading or drawing or simply looking at the ceiling, half naked, observing the cracks. I couldn't stand the idea of being forced to live that office pantomime in perpetuity just to pay for things like rent or food or a book or a weekend at the beach. I broke down every morning when the alarm beeped because life, lived this way, seemed like a badly written tragedy, boring and sterile, devoid of fun and, even worse, devoid of content, and so, on my way to work, I felt like grabbing strangers by the shoulders and asking them why they weren't feeling like me. What was their secret, how did they manage to maintain their composure, why didn't they cry every time their alarms beeped?"

- Beatriz Serrano, Discontent

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