Sunday, March 22, 2015

Goodbye, Deputy.

P.S. this post was written during midterms after TS ended but I've just edited it so everything that is "today" or "yesterday" or "tomorrow" in this post refers to the then date. Note: Lengthy post ahead because it's on my first theatre performance experience.

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I am very happy tonight because midterms are finally over!! And we'll be having e-learning week next week. Well-deserved rest because our recess week was spent mugging for burden midterms. Can't wait to go out and have some fun!! But have to catch up with online lectures and tutorials too zzz but at least don't have to go to school yay!!

On Monday, we had our first theatre graded performance. Can I just say how much I like my group??!! Much gratitude that we got such good members who were experienced, patient, nice and hilarious!! I would be so clueless and dead if not for their help in helping me develop my character. I remember how the first time was so awkward because we didn't really know one another, and we ended up meeting at a random cafe at biz to do our first text reading HAHA. It was so awkward because it was so difficult to get into character and express myself freely in a random cafe with so many others eating.

I remember how demoralised Doreen and I were after our first performance critique. We totally felt so depressed and no motivation after realising how inadequate our skills were, and realised how amazing the other 2 groups were. (THEY ARE SERIOUSLY TOO GOOD MY GOSH.) And honestly speaking, I was so so afraid of becoming a burden to my group because I just couldn't get into character. Plus, the number of lines I had to memorise weren't helping at all. I think I had the most lines to memorise in the entire tutorial?? WTH. So burdensome!!

It was hilarious because the day before the performance, me and Doreen were being all chill, until our whatsapp group being flooded with pics of WJ fretting over what shirts he should wear to portray his character, and Rachel deciding what to wear. Then after seeing that, we two started panicking too and all of a sudden, I was so so afraid of forgetting my lines and stuff. It's definitely not easy having 7 pages of lines to remember :( Worst character to develop ever my gosh.

The morning was a total fluster because I felt so disoriented. WJ helped Doreen and I to get our makeup and hair done. It was an interesting experience having a guy doing your hair and makeup seriously LOL how can he be more expert at than we are??!! We had our hair hair-sprayed like 4 times and our faces were caked with bronzer and blush. Rachel and WJ are seriously too professional and so so experienced I am AWESTRUCK. During rehearsals, they were always giving us such wonderful feedback and please they can portray my character like a gazillion times better than me. Haiz why am I such a failure :( Oh that morning was disastrous too because nerves got the better of me and I kept forgetting my lines!! Plus watching the other 2 groups performed just killed my confidence because damn SO PRO. And I think my group got a bit worried because I kept stumbling over lines. So I told Rachel I really cannot do it and I'm going to screw up and forget my lines, and she just grabbed me and said, "NO. YOU CAN DO THIS. YOU WON'T FORGET YOUR LINES. YOU'LL REMEMBER THEM. DON'T THINK ABOUT IT." Hahaha she's so cute lah this shadajie.

But all turned out well I guess. None of us forgot our lines!! And I think it was our best performance!! Plus I got really shocked on stage during the fight scene because from my angle, it really seemed like Rachel kneed WJ in the groin HAHA. Oh plus it was the first time WJ scolded the F word because Rachel doesn't like vulgarities haha so when he followed the script and said it our for the first time, I think it really impacted her and allowed her to feel the shock for her character more HAHA. Vivan said the part where I had to be all sarcastic and go all BRAVO BRAVO was super hilarious haha thanks HAHAHA. Not supposed to be funny but yay at least my sarcasm was portrayed well. And loved the part where Doreen ripped the letter HAHA FREAKING FUNNY.


Qiang, Jane, Head, Deputy hehehe.

Kind of sad that we won't be in the same group for the final presentation anymore, but so glad to be able to work with you guys for that few weeks. It was worth it. So thankful that I had such a wonderful group with no group politics or whatsoever. I'll remember the fun times we had a YST for rehearsals and lying on the grass at utown green and just chilling HAHA. And so happy that I'll be in the same group as Vivan too haha!! And hopefully our group members would be nice and fun to work with. We'll need serious guidance though because we're all so inexperienced.

Today's final paper ended off with a freaking tense session outside the LT and it was so filled with tension that doreen, vivan, xuxi and I couldn't take it HAHA. So hilarious lah the things that happened after that, with WJ imitating someone and flipped his hair and acting all diva omg we died laughing. Strong alliance we formed there huh?? HAHA. But I think the whatsapp group we created is going to die LOL it's so difficult to say stuff there because of people whom we're not so close to and hmmm can't really trust??

Edit1: DOREEN IS IN MY GROUP NOW WHEEE!! But we all just realised how powerful the other groups are??!! Like almost all of them have experience omg GOING TO LOSE OUT SO BADLY.

Edit2: My grade for the performance was so horrible!! It was like the tutor gave us all positive comments and then when we received the grade, it just reflected all negative feedback!! Nothing sucks more than being given hope and then facing disappointment in the end.


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